Moments of Life

2025 has been a year filled with a lot of challenges and a few opportunities. I went through some difficult medical situations. I had to travel to Pakistan for treatment, and luckily, I was able to recover, and I am living my life being grateful for every breath I take. I realize how valuable life can be when you face a life-threatening situation.  At the beginning of the year, I had set a couple of milestones for myself to achieve, but unfortunately, I couldn't achieve most of them, not because I DIDN'T try, in fact, I tried my hardest, but couldn't achieve them due to the external factors over which I had no control. However, one of the targets I did achieve, overachieved to be precise, was reading books. I had set out to read 25 books during 2025, and yet I ended up reading around 30 books by November. Despite my responsibilities at work and challenges at home, and my personal life, I never stopped reading. Reading has always been one of the few things I truly enjoy in l...

Life has never been certain, and we have been unable to stop time from passing. And yet we live our lives accepting both conditions. There may be another way of looking at it. There may be beauty in the passage of time and the uncertainty of life. In knowing that the present is all we have got and it is running away from us as fast as possible, and we have to make the best of it while we can; in knowing that future is uncertain and no matter how much we try, we will never be sure about what will happen in the future. All we can do is to make the best of the present and have hope for the future.  For me, growing up I thought that grown-ups are really lucky, because they know what is best and what is not, and what will happen in the future. Not knowing what would happen in the future was not a very good feeling at the time. As I became a grown-up myself, I realized grown-ups are as clueless about the future as children are. But as time passes, I am starting to appreciate that maybe t...

  Frankly, I never thought I would be in Afghanistan even after three years of college graduation. By now I thought I'd be somewhere far off but sadly I am still here. I am not sure when I'd be able to leave. I am afraid if I stayed here for long I might not wanna leave. Plus I am getting older by each year. There is the matter of marriage also. I am not sure how much longer I can keep postponing it. I am not worried so much about the marriage though, still, it seems like I should start thinking about it. But then again marriage can wait but education can't.  I am thinking of starting my higher education online. With the Taliban and their unpredictable rules, getting a passport to travel abroad is not guaranteed. So online education is my only way forward. I am thinking of settling down here; if only I could find the right person. Marriage is a very tricky business, there is no margin for error. For now, I can start my online studies and after a year or two when I am close ...

when I was a kid I thought I will figure out everything when I am younger, but apparently, that was just a childish dream of mine. I had thought by this age I would understand most things and would be able to make decisions about my life so easily. It is just so hard to make peace with the fact that I will never figure out everything and that I will always have doubts. I don't want to sound ungrateful because I really am not. I understand that the life I am living right now is a dream for thousands of young people in my homeland. However, I am not happy. I just don't know why? The reason for my unhappiness might be the people around me most of whom are impossible to understand. I work in a very prestigious international humanitarian organization but I don't like it here as much as I should. most of the people working here are insanely stupid and unbelievably arrogant. there is no teamwork. Every single department acts like an independent republic. No spirit of collaboration...

 Last days with International Medical Corps-Afghanistan  So, these are my last days with IMC-Afghanistan. I joined IMC, at the beginning of July-2022. And I had intended to stay, at least for a year. However, turns out I was not going to stay in Sar-e-Pul city for long; fate had something different for me. I was able to be accepted into World Vision International-Afghanistan, as a Monitoring and Evaluation Officer in my own home city. The written test for the position was, like two months ago. I don't know why they took so much time to conduct their interviews. Since I was not able to attend the interview in person, I requested them if they would take my interview through Skype, and luckily they agreed. My interview went well, you know, like not really well, but well enough. It seemed that my co-applicants' were not as good as mine. A day after my interview I received a call from WVI-Afghanistan country office in Herat city. The guy, who introduced himself as HR Officer, ...

Live is going on. Live in the new city is a huge change for me. I never realized that one day I'll be working in SariPul Province. So far, I loved most of the things about the city. There is just the matter of price of living here. It is considerably expensive here; well, the rent not the food. Food is the same as in everywhere else in the country. Here I could not find some place cheaper, so I took a block for 4500 Afs per month ($50).  There is the matter of learning for me here, which is worth a lot more than just 50 bucks. I had three hours of online with our MEAL Manager in Kabul on Thursday. He discussed really useful topics about report writing. No one had taught me these stuff before, so I simply did not know any of the rules about writing a report. However, I learned some very good things which will help me a lot whenever I am writing a report or anything at all.  Yesterday, I went jogging outside my apartment. The streets around the building where I am staying here a...